Anhoni ghatnaaye part-1

Anhoni ghatnaaye part-1

Humari zindagi mein kabhi kabhi aisa kuch ho jaata hai jis par yakin karna bahut hi mushkil hota hai, yadi iss vishya mein kisi se charcha karo to log ya to haste hain ya fir maze lene ke liye baate sunte hai ya fir dimaagi mareez samajh kar kisi achhe chikatshak se milne ka nihshulk mashvara dete hain, aisa wo log isliye karte hain kyon ki unhe humare baat pe yakin nahi hota, bhala ho bhi kyon aakhir unhone to ya fir unki zindagi mein aisa kuch thode hi hua hai jo wo kisi asambhav se ghatna pe yakin itnee aasani se kar lein, aakhir unhe ispe yakin karne ke liye pramaan chahiye hote hain kintu kuch ghatnaye aisee hotee hain jinke humare paas pramaan nahi hote kintu iskta arth ye kadaapi nahi hota ki jiske pramaan nahi hai wo hai hi nahi iss shrishti pe ya unka koi astitva hi nahi hai,

      Kintu maine dekha hai waise to log aaj ke samay mein kaafi pade likhe bante hai aur kahte hain ki wo kisi aisee ghatna pe yakin nahi karte jiska koi saakshya na ho lekin maine dekha hai ki chori chupke wo bhi yakin karte hain ya fir haalat ne unhe bhi iss par yakin karwa hi diya.

  Ab meri hi baat le lijiye ek waqt tha jab mujhe Ishwar yani ki bhagwan pe sandeh tha ki wo iss duniya mein hai bhi ya nahi, jab bhi baat chalti to mann mein mere bas ye hi khyaal aata ki kya wo parmeshwar, wo khuda wo ishwar hai kya iss jagat mein, kintu august-1999 ki yaani ki mere school ke samay ki baat hai meri kuch saheliya school se chhutti hone pe church jaane wali thi, to unhone mujhe bhi ek baar church chalne ke liye aamanatrit kiya aur maine bhi isse pahle kabhi church nahi dekha tha isliye haan bol diya, lekin waha ja kar ahsaas hua ki jaise khud Ishwar ne mujhe yaha bulaaya ho, wo khud mujhe apne kareeb laana chaahte ho, ek behad ajeeb lekin sukhad ahsaas mujhe waha hua, kintu fir iske baad mujhe church gaye 4 saal ho gaye, 4 saal baad aug.2003 mein main aur mera pareewar waha gaye aur mujhe ahsaas hua shayad ye hi wo jagah hai jo mere liye sahi hai, ashaas hua haan ishwar hai, aur iske baad ishwar ne mujhe kabhi akela nahi chhoda, humesha aur har kadam par wo mere saath rahe,

    Lekin Ishwar aur mera ye rishta sirf itnaa hi purana nahi hai, Ishwar aur mera ye rishta to janm janmantron se raha hai, mujhe yaad hai bachpan mein jab meri maa mujhe maarti peet ti thi aur aur khaane peene ko bhi kuch nahi deti thi, jab ghar mein vibhinn tarah ke atyaachaar mujhe pe hote the tab akele mein ek aurata mere paas aati thi, aur jab jab maine usse puchha kit um kaun ho to wo kahti ki main tumhari maa hoon, aur mere muhh se nikalta ki meri maa to wo jo mujhe maati peet ti hai, atyachar karti hai, iss vishya mein wo kuch nahi kahti, kahti to bas itnaa ki wo meri maa hai aur ek din mujhe yaha se jarur le jaaygi, bhookh pyaas se vyaakul mera mann hota to wo mujhe meri pasand ki har cheez khilati thi lekin wo kabhi mere siwa kisi aur ko nazar nahi aayi, jab bhi maine khud ko akela paaya to uss aurat ko apne kareeb paaya, fir jab mera 11^th class mein kisi doosare school mein daakhila hua to waha mera vishya tha manovigyaan, jisme maine pada ki kabi kabi humare andar ki kalpana humare kaalpnik roop mein hume nazar aane lagti hai, hum usse baat karte, uske saath khelte hain kintu asal mein wo kuch nahi bas humari kalpna hoti hai, praachin Bharat mein isse bhool preton ka saaya bhi kahte the kintu aaj ye ek dimaagi beemari hai jo vibhinn kaaranon se hoti hai, so meri samajh mein ye to aa gaya tha jo aurat mujhe dikhai deti hai wo meri bas ek kalpana hai kintu mujhe wo mann ki kalpana achhhi lagne lagi, mujhe usse behad pyaar milta tha jo mujhe kabhi kisi se nahi mila, wo kalpana mujhse kahti thi ki ek din wo mujhe yaa se jarur le jaaygi kintu abhi sahi samay nahi aaya hai par ek din wo jarur le jaaygi, aur issi ummid mein maine apni zindagi ke 16 saal jab tak ki manovigyaan ka wo chapter nahi pada tha tab tak ummid rahi ki ek din wo lady mujhe yaha se le jaaygi apne paas uss duniya mein jaha sirf aur sirf pyaar hoga, koi kisi ka dushman nahi, koi bhed-bhaav nahi, bas waha hoga to pyaar, pyaar waha bas bikhara pada hoga, lekin manovigyaan ke uss chapter ne mujhe kalpana ki uss udaan se jaise zameen pe la diya,

   Lekin waqt ke saath mujhe ahsaas hua jise maine apne mann ki kalpana samajh liya tha wo meri mann ki kalpana nahi balki saakshat Mother Marry thi, unka ye kahna ki ek din wo mujhe apne paas jarur bula lengi ka arth tha ki ek din wo mujhe parmeshar ki sharan mein jarur kheech lengi, mere mann mein jo ye dvand chalta tha ki Ishwar hain ya nahi iss dvand se unhone mujhe na sirf baahar nikala balki jo wo bachpan se kahti aayi thi ki ek na din wo mujhe apne paas bula lengi unhone wo hi kiya, aur rahi baat pyaar ki, jaha koi berr bhaav nahi, jahan koi bhed-bhaav nahi to aisa sthaan sirf Ishwar ki sharan ke atirkt hume aur kahan mil sakta hai,  

   Iske saath hi ek aur Ishwariye ghatna mere saath bachpan ke samay mein hui thi, mujhe yaad hai meri umar uss waqt 8 ya 9 saal ki rahi hogi, mujhe aur bachhon ki tarah hi ghar ki deewaron pe drawing kar ke unhe bigaadna kaafi achha lagta tha, uss din navraton ka shayad pahla din tha, maine deewar pe mata ki drawing banana shuru kar di, maine Mata ki 3 bahut hi khoobsurat c drawing banai, lekin jaise hi wo drawing poori hui to maine dekha ki unme halchal c hone lagi hai, mata ki aankhon ghoom rahi hai aur wo muskura rahi hai, main jaha mudu mata ki aankhe wahi ghoom jaaye aur iske saath hi mata ke hounthon pe pyari c muskaan bhi jhalak rahi thi, iss drashya ko dekh kar meri to haalat hi buri ho gayi aur darr ke mare mujhe to bukhaar tak aaya gaya,

    Ye to ghatnaaye thi jo mujhe Ishawar ki taraf kheech rahi thi, aaj Ishwar ke kareeb aa kar maine unki shakti ka aur bhi anubhav kiya hai, haalaki meri paas Ishwar ki shakti avam meri saath jo unhone ye leelaye rachi unka koi praman ya saakshya nahi hai kintu iska arth ye bhi nahi hai ki aisa biklul bhi hua na ho ya maine thodi c bhi kalpna kar ke aapko ye baat batayi ho,

Doston mere iss ank mein aapne Ishwar ki shakti ke bare mein pada, aapne pada ki Ishwar ne kis prakaar mujhe apnee oor kheecha, doston aisi hi kuch ghatnaye hai jinme longon ne ishwar ke vipreet roop yani ki bhoot-preton ko mehsoos kiya hai, wo kahaniya agle bhaag mein..

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