Tuesday 31 March 2015

mere dil ki baat aapke saath

Ab jab maine puri tarah se sanyaas le kar ishwar ki sewa karne ka mann bana liya h to log mujhe mere is faisle ko jaldbaazi ka faisla kah kar peechhe lautne ko kah rahe hain,

Par ye log nai jante aakhir main bhi to insaan hu, Maine bhi kabhi sapne dekhe honge, aam insaano ki hu tarah jeene hasrat ki hogi, Jo hasin pariwaar aur career ko le kar sab khwaab dekhte h Maine bhi dekhe honge,

Par aaj Jo faisla Maine kiya h na to WO kayartapoorn h aur na apni samsyao se bhagna h, samasyaye to jab tak h tab tak ham jivit h, isliye ye kahna galat hoga ki apne karmo aur samasyaao se ghabra kar ye faisla kiya h,


Bachpan se hi mujhe auron se alag kaha jata that shyad mere vichaar alag the, pariwaar ki galat aur ladka-ladki ki bhed-bhaaw poorn neeti iske saath hi naari virodhi prachin paramparao ka khul kar virodh kiya, iske liye daant aur maar bhi khub padi, us wakt neri umar 10 saal se kam hi rahi thi,

Shayad tabi mujhe log kahte main alag hu, bahut buraa bhi lagta ye sun kar, iske baad mere school time hi 3rd standard ki baat hogi mere face par kuch ajib si pimples aa gayi, 2 saal tak pas bhare in pimples ne mera chehra puri tarah khrab kar diya, jab ye thik hui to gehre daag chhod gyi face par, aur inhi ki wazah se school/Ghar har jagah mera pura shoshan hota raha, mujhe duniya ki sabse badsurat ladki kah kar log meree seerat dekhe binaa mujhse duri banate rahe aur achhooto jaisa vartaav karte rahe,

Par un halato main bhi Maine khud ko dhaal liya aur  apni padai par dhyaan de kar badne lage, par shayad ye meri innocence thi jo logon ko na jaan saki, umar ke saath sabne mera shoshan bahut kiya, jis shakhs se galat bardast nai kuch hota tha kadam kadam pe apna kahne walo ne galat kiya,


Isliye jivan k har dard aur apne kuch priyejan ko khone k gam ko seene me le kar ye faisla kiya aur yakin h mujhe ye sahi h, ishwar ne mujhe aaj apnaya h jaha sabne thukraya h, main alag hu isliye usne mujhe apne kadmo me jagah di h, main uske sath khush hu, apne liye khush hu,



Dhanywaad





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